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There are many things that I would write on this blog if it weren't visible to the public. I don't know why I do what I do. I don't know what to do or what I should be doing. I wish that I were bigger and taller so I could be more intimidating and a better negotiator. I wish I understood what I want to do. I wish I understood who my competitors are. I wish I knew how much others know and how much more I need to know to outperform others. My heart is filled with bitterness and anger at this rough world.

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